One month ago...took three years...

to where things should have always been... i can't believe it took me this long to realize who i want, and who i want to be with. He makes me feel different from what my past has made me feel. i get so excited to see him every single time. he gives me butterflies and that feeling of being wanted every time he kisses me. when he hugs me, i never want him to let go & i feel so safe. he comforts me when i am down. he asks me things and i am not afraid to let him know. he doesnt think any of the feelings that i feel are dumb and stupid. he takes me seriously by speaking and listening to me, like a REAL man should do.

.. he is everything that i've ever wanted.. and i cant believe it took me so long to figure things out!! i have been through hell and back again just to be with this man. i adore him a lot & i'm not afraid to let it be known. yes, we have been together for about a little over a month, but i feel like it has been forever.

he has ALWAYS been there whenever i needed him. he has ALWAYS been the one to give me the advice that i need. he has ALWAYS been the one that understood where i was coming from. he has ALWAYS been around when no one else was. geezee... he has ALWAYS been the ONE.

So to all my past...
"according to him I'm beautiful, incredible
He can't get me out of his head
According to him I'm funny, irresistible
Everything he ever wanted"
.... you've lost me to someone who has always been here.. : )


SUCKAH!!!


love,
annie

its been...

3 months since I've last written in this thing.

I'm happy and that is really the only thing that matters. : )

New job position, new pay, new man in my life. Still have my old friends and my best friend. I love every moment of my life.

Satisfied.

...........FINALLY.

LiFE...

is good! :] This can't get any better.

I LOVE the way things are going for me right now. Although school has been a drag, I am still extremely happy and content.

I need MONEY!! I am tryna get out of this place! No worries, I am determined to get out by the time summer starts. :] woot woot!

I am soooo stressed-free, and that is really how life should be. Life shouldn't be hard, because it should be easy.

"Everything Will Fall Into The Right Places...."

a stupid quote, for stupid and naive people. In actuality, NOTHING ever falls into the right places, because they always fall into the wrong ones. I'm torn, confused, hurt. Every bad feeling that there is to feel at this point. I am just over it. I am too tired to cry and to think about what will happen, when it will happen, and why it will happen. Truth is, it has already happened. Deep in my heart, I know that I love him, and that he loves me too, but right now, at this point, our LOVE is obviously not strong enough to keep us together. There's "no sparks" left. It will "never be how it use to be" and this is what truly hurts. After trying and trying, nothing good really came out of it...

I'm not begging anymore. I'm not pleading anymore. I'm not crying anymore. You are not my priority anymore. You are no longer a part of me. Yes, I am in great pain; I feel like you just took out my heart, ripped it in half, and threw it in the fire. This pain is relentless, it has no mercy on me. I have too much LOVE for you and my emotions are too closely tied to you, for me to let go of you. But I know in order for me to be happy, I need to move on & NEVER EVER LOOK BACK....

It's true, we both needed to take the initiative to work things out & maybe I needed to, the most. We didn't meet half way, not in the middle, not even close.

"you want me to cop that plead and say ok im wrong?
things are gettin heavy, but i gotta stay strong,
i try to talk it over with you when i coulda been gone, because
you hurt me, and i hurt you, you complain about the things that i dont do ,
and i dont wanna take the blame neither do you, because we got too much to loose.

We gotta meet in the middle."


Goodbye.


-Annie